About Me

Nobody.

That I used to say once. But, many things happened, and here I am.

I'm ordinary boy, trying to live ordinary life, with ordinary skill. Nothing to boast. Nothing to shame of.
I wish myself to be like that. But no, the world is not so kind.

I'm the kind of boy who had trouble to communicate with people. They said that my word are hard to understand. Well, maybe that because I'm one of the people with few words. Or maybe there's something with my way to stop caring this wretched world. Anyway, looks like I can communicate better with writings. That came from my English tutor in my high school. I got almost satisfactory score for listening, reading and writings, but don't talk 'bout the speaking part. Something with the nerve and gut. Or easily straying from the topic of discussion.

Appearance wise, I belong to the extraordinary group. In all areas. And not in the good side. But hey, that's my body for me to take care. And yeah, I got a lot of trouble because that phrase.

Personality. I tend to view myself as evil. So does everybody. After all, except some rare people that were born without desire and obtained no desire for their entire life, we are all EVIL. We crush others to advance. And don't try to deny it. We may call it righteous or just, but to reach the so called thing, how many people we crush, stepped, sacrifice? For the so called dream or goal, humans are willing to do anything.

Religion. Hmmm... tricky one. If I were asked whether I believe in God, I say yes. If I were asked what is God, then I answer God is the supreme being, something that can't be called Good or Evil, something that, for my view, the most terrible thing in universe. There is a line from a book I read before, I'm not quite remember the exact line but it said that God prevented man to eat the Fruit of Life, after Adam and Eve eat the Fruit of Knowledge, so that they never become like Us. I used to thing the Us is God and Angels, but then again Angels can't commit sin, as they faithfully obey god order. Since eating Fruit of Knowledge, the first Sin human ever made, make us know the difference between Good and Evil and allowed us to commit sin, and if Sin interpreted as defying God, then Angels don't eat Fruit of Knowledge. Then God is one that eat both fruit, and since no one else above him, he can't commit evil things yet you can say not all of his action are good.

Hobby, books and movies and sometimes music, just listening, not singing or composing. Most of the time, I tend to forget the title, but strangely not the content so I had a hard time to find some old movies that I want to re-watch again. I rent, by the way. As for book, I try to buy them but yes, I still borrow some from friends. I like romance, but it's limited to where the couple have the end like Remembrance of Certain Pilot, a plot akin to the Notebook or If Only, or the old Romeo and Juliet thing. Sum it up, I love when the couple recognize their love but end up died when they realize it or have to separate way to preserve their love. Mystery? Just named it, vampire, werewolf, witch, etc. As to which era in terms of setting, I love European in 18th to late 19th century. Japanese and Korean traditional clothes included. Their fashion style strike home, elegance and unique without being vulgar.

And that's me. See me as myself. That's what I hope.